Oh well. Moving on.
As you may know, I am a reader of blogs. Love, love blogs. Well, mainly "mommy" blogs, but I tend to gravitate towards the artistic and hip "mommy" blogs. I also read a "daddy" blog - Pacing the Panic Room. He's being doing a video series for The Gap entitled "Do What You Love." Very cleverly, he is doing what he loves - making movies - about people doing what they love. While wearing Gap clothing. I really liked the most recent episode (though all are fantastic) about Jessica.
Growing up, my parents did not appear to do what they love. Now, with hindsight, I understand my dads where doing what they love - my Dad loves to work (any job) and my Father loves thinking technically (he's an Engineer). But my mom never seemed to find a job she loved; she had those she was very good at, but didn't love. I "suffer" (for lack of a better term) from the same fate. I'm good at many things - accounting, writing, organization, phone banking, etc. With the exception of writing (and it depends on the type of writing), I don't love doing those things.
I'm really not sure what my passion is. I thought I had found "it" in the past but it got tedious after a while or boring. Am I just easily bored? Am I fickle? Am I never satisfied? I envy those people who are passionate about what they do - seeing the sparkle in their eyes, hearing their ideas, seeing them in action. I want that - those feelings - for myself.
But, I wonder, is it a reasonable expectation? Lots and lots of people work at jobs they don't love and get along just fine. Am I putting too much emphasis on finding a job I love instead of finding a life a love? I think that's the key. And I am working on that - finding a life I love. I have two job interviews this week, one full-time, one part-time. Jason and I discussed the pros and cons of each and I felt drawn to the job that will allow me a bit more balance between work and home time, more time with my girls, more freedom, though all for less pay. Which doesn't seem quite so important anymore - thankfully, we have the luxury for it to not be such a concern. We'll see how it works out.