Thursday, January 12, 2012


Oh, how I have avoided writing about this topic but also mentally drafted several postings on it.  Here goes.

Since May 2011, I have lost 40 pounds.  Here's the how - nursing Mimi and eating lots of low fat protein and vegetables.  It's that simple and that boring.  I followed, sometimes loosely, the Dukan Diet and the Paleo diet.  'Nuff said about that.

Two things have surprised me about losing weight - First, that I now look in the mirror and see the body I expect to see.  For years, I've looked in the mirror and been surprised to see that my body was bigger than I anticipated.  The incongruousness of that would leave me shocked, sad and negative.  Now, I look in the mirror and see what I expect to see and it feels good - I'm happy with what I see.  I look how my brain thinks I look.  The outside matches the inside, so to speak.

Second, because of the afore mentioned contentedness, I don't really feel like losing those last 10 pounds.  I'm giving it a go, but by February 15th, I'm going to call it good and start the maintenance phase of the diet.  I'd like to be a size 10, but not something I deem necessary or am willing to strive for.

I want to emphasize that I lost the weight because I wanted to.  I didn't feel I had to or needed to (though one could argue that our culture ingrains this in women - and that would most likely be the case for me).  I wanted to see what would happen if I did shed some weight, specifically 50 lbs.  I did not anticipate the results.  I thought I'd lose the weight and want to lose more, be more critical of my body.  I didn't expect acceptance, but I will most certainly take it and celebrate it.


Nanimal said...

wow.. I am nearing that. I want to be able to do yoga poses without my belly being in the way. :) great work at being content!

carmen said...

Good for you!! And I am so glad that you feel content in your body.