From the title, you may have guessed - things are going so much better! Wheeeeeeeeeee! I am a tad giddy.
The happiness feels a touch fragile. I note this only in hopes of reminding myself that should something troubling come up that my happiness wasn't a fluke or a lie, just on ground that has not yet hardened.
And to learn from my current state - for it's my opinion I should learn from the positive and the negative - here's what I think is contributing to it:
I also made a big break through on the walk to the car the other night. I struggle when people are upset with me. I work very hard, mentally, to figure out how to change that. I remind myself that people have a right to their feelings, but that's not the real issue. The real issue is I need to be okay that they are upset with me - that I struggle with. That slight shift in perspective shot straight to my core and I realized that is where the issue lies. I need to learn to be okay that people are mad at or unhappy with or sad about (etc.) me. That I don't actually have to care or change that feeling, but I do have to live with it.
Happy Day!
The happiness feels a touch fragile. I note this only in hopes of reminding myself that should something troubling come up that my happiness wasn't a fluke or a lie, just on ground that has not yet hardened.
And to learn from my current state - for it's my opinion I should learn from the positive and the negative - here's what I think is contributing to it:
- Mimi has been sleeping through the night; hence, so have I - at least two nights this week!
- I'm back on my protein and veggie diet, which seems to help me have more stable moods and energy.
- I've taken time to relax each evening after the girls go to bed and before I go to bed (mainly by watching Clean House - love that show!).
- Someone is out on vacation for this week (and next!).
- I had a lovely, relaxing weekend with Aunty Ruu (thanks, Aunty Ruu!).
- When my anger has flared, 85% of the time I've remembered to breathe deeply.
- The girls have been so super cute and fun.
- The weather hasn't been too cold and it's been sunny.
- I've found a ton of new blogs to read.
- I'm reading The Happiness Project and found a kindred spirit in the author.
- I'm trying not to apologize for little things.
- I made another friend date for Sunday, and my house will be full on friends on Saturday for Mandarin Day (Observed) party.
I also made a big break through on the walk to the car the other night. I struggle when people are upset with me. I work very hard, mentally, to figure out how to change that. I remind myself that people have a right to their feelings, but that's not the real issue. The real issue is I need to be okay that they are upset with me - that I struggle with. That slight shift in perspective shot straight to my core and I realized that is where the issue lies. I need to learn to be okay that people are mad at or unhappy with or sad about (etc.) me. That I don't actually have to care or change that feeling, but I do have to live with it.
Happy Day!
2 comments:
i could swear i commented on this! but i will squeeeee! with you again :) xoxox
*hug*!!!!! the difference a full night of sleep can make...hooo eeee, squeeee!!!!! :-) so glad you are finding love and light and joy. your list made me smile!!! :-)
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