Team Player

Ags is already, unwittingly, a team player. She got sick and I stayed home with her today; during her 3.5+ hour nap I've finally gotten the break, the downtown time I've so desperately needed.  Thank you, Ms. Aggie.

Just wanted to say...

Mimi is just so amazing. I know I'm her mom, but she is just fantastic. Tonight, we laughed together - not about anything, we just wanted to laugh. And she loves, loves, loves kisses. And smiling is her favorite hobby.

It is amazing to me, this thing called motherhood. And having the second babe has made all the difference. Workmans, you were right.

Love Chooses Us

Excerpt from: When the Words Don't Fit by Sarah Healy

So, I suppose that’s the point: Love chooses us.


My husband and I don’t have a great “meeting” story. We met in a conventional way and had a conventional wedding. And in some sense, we lead a conventional life.

But my husband has seen me at my worst, at my most vile. And he has seen me at my best. He knows the things I don’t tell anyone, and the lies that I tell everyone but him. I have made sacrifices for him and been angry about it. Sometimes his flaws are so egregious, so blatant, they are all I see. And sometimes his kindness is so stunning that I am humbled.

And that’s love. Big, epic, fairy-tale love. The kind of love people write about. The kind of love that could inspire a poem.

This is only a test

Holy mother of god, what a week this has been. I won't rehash the details here but it's been a stressful one. Multiple situations in which I had to call upon my self-confidence to weather the bombardment. But weather it I did, so really it's a good thing, I guess. Problem areas have been revealed, as well as some...solution isn't the right word...more paths through the murkiness, though I don't know the state or destination of them. 

This week has also revealed that the girls and I have great relationships. (Though I must confess that I worry I don't pay enough attention to Mimi; I'm guessing this will change with time and the girls needs and will never be a perfect balance.)

The Good
- hosted book club and had a fantastic evening - really enjoy the company of those ladies.
- had lunch with two co-workers and found out one lives mere blocks from me - I may just yet have a friend in M-F!
- had my boss, his wife and two young daughters over for football watching and play date.
- Random Act of Kindness: let one of the day care teachers practice her English with me (she speaks really well but lacks confidence, and she feels safe with me to push her language boundaries).
- alas, no coloring (fierce scribbling with a black crayon might have been very therapeutic).

Overall, wonderful gifts, some in very yucky packages.

This is so me today